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I hate it when people tell me "Don't be depressed."
I have been fighting with Depression since I was probably about 22. Maybe even longer than that. No, I don't take meds - I don't trust something that boasts of side effects that are worse than the condition they treat. I have good days and I have bad days. I'm not suicidal or anything - just my mind goes in fifty directions at once and I get frustrated with it. Is that Depression? Well, I don't know.
Regardless, I can't turn it off and on like a light switch.
One thing you can do is just leave me alone.
That is all.
/end rant
I have been fighting with Depression since I was probably about 22. Maybe even longer than that. No, I don't take meds - I don't trust something that boasts of side effects that are worse than the condition they treat. I have good days and I have bad days. I'm not suicidal or anything - just my mind goes in fifty directions at once and I get frustrated with it. Is that Depression? Well, I don't know.
Regardless, I can't turn it off and on like a light switch.
One thing you can do is just leave me alone.
That is all.
/end rant
[Creativity...]
In my 33 years of writing, drawing and storytelling; I have discovered that the Creative Brain is -extremely- loud! It never calms down long enough for you to get something together! I have been plagued - well, not really plagued...plagued is a bad word - with a few different concepts for a story. I need to write... this has to happen. If I want to be an author and not have to worry about living paycheck to paycheck too much, I need to write something good.
That being said...
I wish my ideas would calm down long enough for me to start!!
I have a historical fiction story idea dealing with the Mine Wars in West Virginia back in the twent
[Letter to an Ex]
How can I possibly illustrate to you how much you've hurt me? There are no words that can stress what you've done. You were given a broken girl and you promised to help her find herself, find her confidence, and you did - oh, you did. But your betrayal of her trust in you destroyed her. You gave her a voice back, you accepted her flaws and imperfections and you made her comfortable. You danced into a relationship on the chorus of "Be With You" by Mr. Big and you both were happy there. You went on hikes and adventures and you were her protector. When you were homeless, she stayed by your side. She asked you to get your shit together -
[I'm alive...]
Well, I'm here. I didn't die or fall off the face of the Earth. Much to a few people's dismay probably. Not much art because my creativity has been pretty much gone since June. But I'm still around checking out the work of you lovely peoples.
And I was tired of seeing the same journal entry.
So there's that.
Peace.
[Those who can...]
... create their own worlds have my respect. I have been playing in the same world since 2008 and I still can't seem to get anything on paper, word documents or otherwise. So here's to you ~Orpheelin (https://www.deviantart.com/orpheelin), :iconSaimain:, and all those other DA-haunters that have created fantastic art and beautiful worlds for all of us to enjoy.
So I'll be over here... rebuilding and re-casting my world of Alezar...for the fifth time...
One day.
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